How should I start.
And OGL training was finally over.
I wouldn't want to say anything much about it since, I can't and just don't feel like saying.
On the way back from Woodlands CC to Cwp, walked fast enough to left Annie behind.
That wasn't purposely.
I just want to be alone. (I hope so.)
& perhaps this is a disadvantage of walking alone- I will think a lot.
I'm kinda disappointed of myself today.
How should I put it..
Hmm, maybe I can be more sharp & alert..? Prepare everything beforehand properly?
Maybe I can.. Yeah I need someone to scold me plus some motivation to move on.
Cause' realised I haven't been that normal like I used to.
Hello, not because of previous posts. (Those don't affect me.)
But, maybe it's due to laziness.
Tend to do things sloppily, drag here & there.
My things are not done really properly (I think), very disorganized.
Here left abit, there not updated, like got a lot of things I did halfway and never bother to continue.
What am I doing from the start until now?
Seriously, I'm unsure.
And this shows that I'm not putting in my effort, doing my best in everything ever since the EOY exams.
I thought I can relax, maybe slack a bit, but for now I think I went overboard.
Out of track already, who can a favour, bring me back on the right path?
Thinking that next year will be having 'o'lvl, feeling so damn helpless can.
It's like during this holiday I pay no attention to my studies at all, can't really remember what has been taught for the past one year, and next year there will be more stuffs that need to be stored in my brain, argh, i feel like dying.
Trainings in the first 2 months next year, plus those academic stuffs, I really don't know if I'm able to cope.
Maybe you'll say, but this year everything appeared fine.
But in fact, not really.
Guess lady luck was on my side during the beginning of the year to help me 混过 the few months then.
Next year, will I be that lucky?
Family, I feel so lonely at home these few days.
Not because there's no one else in the house, but the house appeared not like one's home.
Not those kind that is filled with warmness, fun and blah.
The guys have to work until quite late, Mum will always sleep earlier to wake up early in the morning, while Sis will be upstairs playing her Facebook.
(Mum just told me to sleep earlier.)
But, haiix.
People don't feel like eating when they have no appetite, I think this applies to sleep too.
I've no appetite to sleep.
Hahaha, weird English.
I want to find someone to talk to.
Annie called just now, but maybe due to tiredness or this moody moody feeling made our conversation last for only 2 minutes.
So unusual, as normally we can talk up to 1 hour plus.
If someone ask me, are you okay?
I will say "Hmm." ; but. . .
Ah whatever.
I planned not to go sin this week except for during Christmas.
I want to do my homework.
I want to do my stuffs properly.
I want to rest.
shutdown.
